论林黛玉的存在体验

Miss Lin Daiyu's Experience as a Human Being Ever in Existence

林黛玉本来喜聚会，却又自甘寂寞，甘愿离群索居。因为贾府里、人群中有她的所爱所恨、所喜所悲。她否定“仕途经济”，则是既否定那个社会的最高价值，也否定那些从事、热衷“仕途经济”的男男女女，这样，在观念上，她把自己分裂成精神主体与作为物质存在的主体。林黛玉始终生活于爱与被爱、自洁与合群的矛盾中。当她认定自由存在于世外的时候，她的人格从此就陷入内在分裂之中。

While Miss Lin Daiyu had a liking for joining others in parties, she chose to live in solitude because there were in Mr ila's mansion house persons and things she liked or loved and persons and things she disliked or felt sorry for. Not only did she negate political career or governmental service which held the highest value among many in her day, but she also disapproved those men and women who craved and went into for that career. As a result, she split herself ideologically into two parts: a spiritual subject and a subject as a being in existence. From start to finish she lived in a contradictory situation in which she loved and was beloved, and she chose to preserve her purity by refusing to be contaminated by evil influence, and yet liked getting along with others.