从《梦歌》看约翰·贝里曼的自杀

From The Dream Songs to John Berryman's Suicide

贝里曼为什么自杀,在他的《梦歌》中可以找到答案。他常常感到焦虑、沮丧、恐怖、惊慌,不能抹去痛苦的记忆。他最强烈的感受是损失感。父亲的自杀、诗友的死、与妻子不和、被情人抛弃、感情创伤和精神受压抑等都使他感到自己蒙受了极大的损失,以至于患了抑郁症,而抑郁症总是伴随着自杀的可能。贝里曼生活中充满没有净化的激情和能量,经常处于情绪激昂、神经紧张的状态之中,他这张弓的弦总是紧紧地绷着,最后终于无法以血肉之躯对付神经、情感的巨大张力。

Why did John Berryman commit suicide? The answer can be found in The Dream Songs.In his life, Berryman was frequently haunted by agony, desperation, horror, fears, and painful memories.The strongest feeling he had was the sense of loss: his father's suicide, his friends' tragic death, his own bad relationship with his wife, his lover's betrayal, his emotional trauma and mental distress all made him collapse into depression.Berryman's life was filled with unpurified passion and energy, which, like a tight bowstring, put him into a so intense psychological and emotional stress which finally proved to be more than he could bear.