情感炼狱中的田园梦——解析陆小曼《西山情思》

Pastoral Dream in the Purgatory of Affections——The Analysis of Affections in West Hill by Lu Xiaoman

《小曼日记》撰写于陆小曼和徐志摩的不伦之恋饱受争议而前途未明之时,既是陆小曼的情爱心灵史,也是她和徐志摩的灵魂对话录,对于深刻理解徐陆之恋的实质,以及现代性情感哲学,具有重要意义。《小曼日记》在现代言情散文中也占有一席之地,其中记于1925年5月11日的《西山情思》是最出色的一篇。本文从写作背景、篇章结构、思想情感底蕴及戏剧国画修养对文字艺术的影响等多个方面对《西山情思》加以解析,重点探讨陆小曼在这篇日记和1925年6月14日的日记中所表现出的与徐志摩的自然观相呼应的逃离城市、隐居山间的强烈意愿,这是陆小曼在情感炼狱中的"田园梦",同时也是中国文人士大夫在"侠客梦"之外的另一种情结或集体无意识。

The Diary of Lu Xiaoman, written in the period when the future of the controversial love affair between Xu Zhimo and her remained still uncertain, describes both their relationship history and spiritual dialogues. It is significant to help people understand the nature of the love between Xu and Lu, as weli as modem emotional philosophy. Besides, the Diary of Lu Xiaoman also holds a place in modern romance prose, among which Affections in West Hill written on May llth, 1925 is the most remarkable one. This thesis analyzes Affections in West Hill from the perspectives of writing background, text structure, emotions, and influences of drama and traditional Chinese painting cultivation on language art, focusing on the strong wish of escaping from the city and living in se- cluded mountains expressed by Lu Xiaoman in this diary and another one written on June 14th, 1925, which echoes Xu＇s conception of nature. This is Lu＇s ＂pastoral dream＂ in the purgatory of affections and also another complex or collective unconsciousness out of ＂swordsman dream＂ of the Chinese scholars and officials.