中国老年男同性恋者的羞耻感与自我认同

Shame and self-identity of elder gay men in China

目的了解中国老年男同性恋者的情感经验和这部分人群在生命历程中自我认同的社会建构。方法 2011年起,对4地老年男同性恋者进行口述史访谈。结果在具有时代特色的生命历程中,中国老年男性同性恋者逐渐形成一套带有羞耻感的自我认同话语。这种情感即源于他们在异性婚姻与同性关系之间以及孝道与家庭之间的心灵挣扎,也受制于社会以及他们自己将男男性行为归因于病态的认知和态度。他们通过频繁的"寒碜"表达,建立了自己对同性恋身份的羞耻性认同。结论我国老年男性同性恋者的自我认同以羞耻为基调,既受其制约、又能利用其作为能动的情感资本。

Objective To understand the emotional experience and the social construction of self-identity in the life course of elder gay men in China.Methods Since 2011,oral history interviews have been conducted a-mong the elder gay men in four places.Results In the life course with characteristics,elder gay men in China have gradually formed a set of self-identity discourse with a sense of shame.This emotion stems from their spiritual struggles between heterosexual marriage and same-sex relationships,filial piety and family,as well as social and their own perceptions and attitudes that ascribe male-male behavior to pathologies.They build up their shameful i-dentity with their frequent"Hanchen"expressions.Conclusions The self-identity of the elder gay men in China is based on shame,which is not only restricted by it but can be used as the emotional capital of action.