疼痛的成长——论羽蛇的创伤性记忆

The pain grow concerning the plumed serpent traumatic memories

徐小斌《羽蛇》中的主人公羽蛇的一生贯穿着"创伤性记忆",决定了羽蛇的行为方式和命运归宿。童年的羽蛇因对母爱的失望亲手杀死弟弟,罪恶感由此而生。在赎罪的路途中,羽蛇兼具施虐者和受虐者双重身份:一方面,她需要不断寻找各种方法来虐待自己,通过自虐以期能够赎罪。另一方面,她又是施虐的接受者,是受虐者,通过各种受虐来赎罪,以求心安理得,获得母爱。羽蛇在受难的一生中始终贯穿着对自由的追求。本文试图以创伤性记忆为视角,来探讨羽蛇的短暂一生。

Xu Xiaobin the protagonist in the plumed serpent plumed serpent, 'traumatic memories' throughout her life, so to speak, and determines the plumed serpent behavior and destiny. The disappointment of the plumed serpent of childhood for a mother's love to kill brother, guilt comes. In the journey of redemption, the plumed serpent both sadism and masochism double identity: on the one hand,she continued to find ways to torture yourself, through from the hopes of sin; On the other hand,she is sadistic recipients, is abused, through a variety of punishment to sin, in order to feel at ease,get a mother's love. Although plumed serpent spent his life suffering, but in the process of suffering has always runs through her pursuit of freedom. This article attempts in the perspective of traumatic memories, to investigate the short life of plumed serpent.