时间和情欲——论鱼玄机的生命孤独

Time and Lust: Loneliness in the Life of Yu Xuanji

鱼玄机自充任侍妾被弃之后,一生之中都在苦苦寻觅自己的感情寄托,但是终究无法获得眷顾。在时间的流转更替中,她越加觉得生命孤独无助,诗歌中关注了大量有关岁月流逝的意象,如春秋日夜等。本应过着枯寂的道观生活,但她却和诸多的世俗士子交往甚密,放荡不羁,纵情声色。其实,她二元相悖的生活正源于她苦苦追寻爱情而不得的生命孤独。她这样的生活状态成为了唐代社会开放、追求精神自由的一个有力注脚。

After being deserted as a concubine,Yu Xuanji had been seeking for an emotional sustenance bitterly through her life,but she never got the favor all along. As time flew,she was more and more lonely and helpless. Her poems focused largely on images about fleeting time,such as the shift of spring and autumn,day and night and so on. She should have lived a dull and lonely life in the Taoist Temple,but she rubbed together with many mundane scholars,dissolute and sensual. In fact,the extremes of her life originated from loneliness and the absence of love which she bitterly sought for. Her living situation thus became a powerful footnote which explained the open Tang Dynasty and people's search for spiritual freedom.